Being an artist is really insane. I'm kind of beginning to understand why Van Gough cut his ear off and mailed it to that girl. Loonyness kind of just goes with the territory. All month I've been trying to work on my book and haven't been able to. Life keeps nudging in and making it impossible. So, you'd think I'd just live with it and go with the flow, right? I'm a mom. I'm a wife. Dishes need to be done and comapny must be taken care of. But Nooooo. I can't just be normal! I can't!
Why? Well, these people are talking in my head. Write about me, they say. No me! No, me!!!
Ahk!
I'm working on two books at the moment. Not unheard of. My problem is that I just discovered they're connected. One takes place in the present:
The Willow Door
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And one that takes place in the future (a post-appocolyptic faerie/vampire/urban rift)
Golden
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Six main characters in all. Chat, chat, chatting inside my skull and making me loony. It's awesome cause they're very powerful characters, very real to me. But I sometimes feel like I wish there was an off switch.
My life will be changing significantly in September as my kids will be starting school. Not abnormal for most but huge for our family as I've been homeschooling now for six years. This illness just won't let go of me and it's effecting my ability to teach so it's time for a change. The upswing is that I'll have a "writing time" durring the day where I'll be all alone--something I've never had before. Sheesh, I'll ether sit there staring at the screen, unable to work (how do you function without constant interruptions every ten minutes?). Or I'll actually finish my books. *gasp*
I've been working on some character sketches for Golden:
Deception: Areana
Desire: Marec
Decadence: Colm
And I compliled a songlist to go along with the excerpt on my webpage (see how I can find ways to waste my creative energy and still not write?). Each character has a song that goes along with them. You can listen to them if you go here and scroll down to the bottom of the page. ;P You won't know which song goes with which character, though, unless you go to my journal, here. I've got one more to go and I'll have all four main characters from Golden. Not sure what I'll do for The Willow Door, yet. I have an image in my head of Laney (the main character) standing, facing the willow with "life sucks" written on the butt of her jean skirt, maroon Docs, striped tights, with her funky hair all spiky. We'll see if I can ever pull that off...
Anyway, hopefully I can get this stuff onto the page so that my psyche can have a rest. Eesh...
Happy April!
- Location:la-la-land
- Mood:
crazy - Music:Within Temptation
The coolest part, though, is that it's an image from the climax of the novel (the only thing left to write). Don't be fooled, though. This image isn't what it seems--and for those of you who've read my WIP you'll know what I mean.
Here it is...
Stolen
Now just pray that I can sink back into writting. I'm terrified that I've forgotten how...
Rachel~
- Location:not in bed where I should be...
- Mood:
determined - Music:Linkin Park _ the bestest band EVER!
The Servant of the Manthycore is now out!
I also have a new Etsy Shop: Pixy's Garden
You can buy prints of my art there, and soon there will be bookmarks and cards, and well as some handmade purses and bags.
- Location:Desk Chair
- Mood:
bouncy - Music:Red
I finished my illustration project. And on time too!!!! Yay!
Here's a few of the images:
The cover is getting the final touches and should be available very soon.
As it's been, I haven't written at all lately. I've been immersed in my art and can't seem to move away from it now that I'm in that groove.
I feel like I'm on the edge of a breakthrough or something. I really want to keep getting better with this stuff.
So, I entered my first contest. It's through a friend at DeviantArt and was really inspiring.
The image is called, Eros:
You can read more about the image and what it means to me here:
http://thepix.deviantart.com/art/Eros-66
- Location:la-la land
- Mood:
artistic - Music:Sia
Sorry I've been missing in action, but I've been busy trying to meet deadline on Manthycore.
In the meantime something fun:
My short story is now up at The Sword Review:
Sign of the Snake
Yay!
Now, I've gotta go draw more....
- Location:Art desk
- Mood:
busy - Music:Foo Fighters
I started a new one last night and couldn't rest until I finished her. Her name's, Jade, and she's a purdy gal with little friends. :D
- Location:middle of the unfolded laundry pile...
- Mood:
creative - Music:Red
Okay, I've been surfing deviantArt and keep finding all these great artists who make me really want to draw better. So I binged this afternoon and drew this to see what I could come up with for practice. Man, am I tired.
Her name's "Window." Hope you likey...
Here's my progress on Golden:
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And here's a sneek peek at what it's about:
Golden
I'm off to watch another episode of Hero. I am loving that show!
- Location:the floor
- Mood:
exhausted - Music:The Cure
Golden is about the world, 400 years after a huge global warming disaster. Yes, like I said, it's weird. The characters came to me first, three of them caught in this war for life. There's magic and murder and combat boots. I'm loving it! I'll keep you updated on the progress.
But the conference really challenged me to think hard about my work. To delve deep and bare it all. I always thought I did that, but I realized two weeks ago that I wasn't doing it at all. I was being careful. Well, not any more. This is the new and impervious pixy.
The Willow Door is on its way to a huge overhaul, so I'm letting it soak for a while as I sketch and bend Golden to my will--plus I have a lot of drawing to do for Manthycore. I probably should be focusing on one thing, but I just don't seem to be able to do that very long. Perhaps I'm ADD, or something.
I ordered the next round of books for this year's home-school today. All my kids are participating now. Caleb is being taught to read this year, Hannah is learning to read chapter books and more math concepts (uhg!). Josh is headed for third grade and still fighting me at every turn on the reading front--math he's fine in, but reading--you'd think I was asking him to eat lima beans. Then there's Lydia. She's going to be in 5th grade! 5th grade! I'm not ready for this. Soon she'll know more than me.
Okay, I'm tired just talking about all this. Time to make dinner...
- Mood:
busy - Music:Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
I had an awesome, bitchen, totally amazing time at SCBWI LA and can't wait until next year. I met some pretty cool people who I think will be friends for a long time to come. Plus I made some huge strides as a writer--internally, anyway. I was callenged to dig deeper--down to the muck and gore--and stick it on the page. Something about writing for teens made me feel like, "well, I can't put that in." or "The publishers might not like that." Well, now I'm writing it all. Blam. It's gonna be out there. And it inspired me to start my new project--which I was kind of dreading after working on The Willow Door for so long. I feel so free now. Yay!
My new ms is called Golden for now, and it's a whole new leap for me--urban sci-fi, with fantasy elements peperd in there. It's been really fun so far. Here's my progress:
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I also got asked before the conference if I'd be willing to illustrate a book of short stories for a friend. I won't get paid up front, but I'll make royalties. Here's the first of the sketches:
"Through My Tears"
It's really fun working on this. I can't wait to see what comes up next...
- Location:deask chair
- Mood:
chipper - Music:Foo Fighters
Well, I got my first check in the mail from one of the companies my art is contracted with. YAY!!! It's only for $25 but people bought my art! 13 pieces of it! They like me, they really like me. :)
Silly, but it makes me happy.
It comes at a good time as I'm leaving in about ten minutes to go to LA for SCBWI.
*does a little happy dance*
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- Location:happy land
- Mood:
bouncy - Music:Hellogoodbye
SCBWI Los Angeles conference is coming up in just a few days. I'm privilaged to be able to go and can't wait!!!
As it stands now, I'm fantically working on my novel to finish it up and tie the last bow on top. I'm researching the staff and trying to decide which workshops to go to. I'm talking to myself in the mirror, trying to practice my lame pitch. And I'm spazmatically cleaning to try and leave a clean house for my poor abandoned family--thank God for understanding husbands!
Anyone have any fun con stories to make me feel less stressed? I'd really appreciate it. :D
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- Location:la-la land
- Mood:
anxious - Music:Psychedelic Furs
I went nuts this evening cause the kids were out with grandpa.
Three chapters!
Two pivotal scenes!
4,000 words in five hours!
I want to keep going but I need to breathe and make sure I'm still on track for tomorrow. Man, I really hope I can get another huge chunk out. This weekend is going to be full.
Thanks for all the encouragement, guys! You're great!
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- Location:desk chair
- Mood:
crazy - Music:muse
I'm so far behind in life it's not even funny. My poor husband understands this part of the process by now, I think. He's such a doll--just gruts when I get out of bed at 11:30pm to write. "Just one more section." Yah, right.
So close and yet so far. So close to the end, I can taste it. So far from reality and all my friends it's scary. I can't even read the last HP, it's haunting me so bad. Even my art is falling to the way-side. I have a lovely fae lady looking at me right now from across the room, waiting to be finished. And my critique groups are being neglected. All my regular forums are left behind, blog tours left hanging. All I have to say is this thing better get published or some people will never be speaking to me again.
You know how they say artists are in their own little world. Well, I think as a writer its especially true. I'm actually beginning to frighten myself.
- Mood:
weird - Music:Muse
Well, I sent the letter to my agent, telling her I didn't wish to renew our contract. I'm now a lone ranger once more. It's back to the agent lists and writing proposals. Which I'm totally fine with. I'm actually kind of excited. My writing has changed a bit since she signed me--and my direction. I feel like there's a grand adventure ahead. :D
I'm really looking forward to getting to know some new writers at the L.A. SCBWI (Society of Children's Book Writers and Illustrators) Conference this year. Tamora Pierce will be teaching some workshops and Arthur A. Levine of Scholastic will be there as well. It's going to be really fun--except for the traffic. Just four more weeks. I really need to get cracking on my stuff.
My WIP is really progressing--which is good, cause I need to get it finished in time for the conference--no excuses this time. I seem to be on the downhill slope, reaching the end very soon. It's almost scary, I've been working on this one for so long. Of course, there's going to be plenty of editing to do, and all that fun query letter writing. Then there's the sequel...might wait on that, though. See what sort of response I get.
- Mood:
energetic - Music:Lorena McKennit
I just did something kind of nuts. The dealine for the SCBWI conference people to recieve my personal consult is Thursday. So, I knew I needed to get it out today or I was not going to make the cut. Needless to say I had my pages all polished and ready to send out when I did something I hope doesn't ruin me: I cut the first chapter. Just cut it. Snip!
It was driving me crazy, editing, editing, editing, the thing. I felt like I'd edited the life right out of it. So, I snipped the whole thing, then read through the pages again. Hmmm, I thought. Not too bad. Might be okay. But I was having trouble seeing it from the outside. I have all the details of stuff buzzing in my head. Is the editor/agent going to get enough of them in the new beginning to keep him/her knowing what's up?
I haven't a clue. But it's done now...
I guess they'll be able to tell me. :)
- Mood:
nervous
I'm finally rolling again. I can't talk about it, though, cause then something stupid will happen and I'll have another bump in the road. I'm getting superstitious in my old age.
I just paid for my spot at the SCBWI LA con and am really looking forward to that. Should be fun getting to know some new people and learning, learning, learning. Then I'm hoping to go to SDWC in the new year. I only get one con a year, but that will be a new year, right? And I'll be getting that money tree any day now.
One can hope.
- Mood:
optimistic
So, why do I feel like I'm walking in quicksand here? A whole day is passed and I found myself looking for reasons to not write--I did watch Apocalypto, though. A totally AWESOME movie with all kinds of great emotional and visual inspiration for writing fodder. But it''s 11:30pm and no good stuff will emerge now. Grrrr.....I'm also fighting off this illness that's been dragging me down for eight months. Stupid CFS! If I eat anything that's not organic, I get ill. If I overwork myself, I get ill. If I get stressed, I get ill. It's not very conveniant.
What I need is a boost. I've got two novels sitting there needing to be finished and three short stories I've started and have then lost interest in. It's like I get to the middle and I flop. I run out of steam. I need to push through this or it's gonna drive me nuts.
Someone help. I need ideas!
- Mood:
aggravated
Oh, I feel so much better today! Praise God! Now the key will be to not over do it and try to get all the stuff done I've been mulling over while I languished in a pile of Kleenex.
And yesterday I discovered a cool thing. A VERY cool thing. And just in time for The Sword Review tour. That Bill, he's so clever. :)
Isn't it purdy! And Selena did such a wonderful job on this. Plus, my story, Sorrow's Shroud is in there--an all new re-edited version. I finally got to fix all those things that have been bothering me for a year. Not many writers can say that. :)
Here's the list of stories inside:
SR poetry
"Draco Nivalis Icarus" by Johan Jönsson
"The Time May Be Right" by Jaime Lee Moyer
"After the Crash" by Samantha Henderson
"Just Another Work Day in Fairyland" by Marcie Lynn Tentchoff
"Dragon's Lament" by Keesa Renee DuPre
"The Hottest Fever In The World" by Mikal Trimm
SR fiction:
"Voices from the Void" by Mirta Ana Schultz
"The Short Bus" by Marsheila Rockwell
"A Kabrisk's Son" by Sean T. M. Stiennon
"Without Wings" by Kurt Kirchmeier
"Tethered in Purgatory" by Terry W. Ervin, II
"Justice" by L. S. King
"Music for the Soul" by Pam L. Wallace
DKA Poetry:
"Biblioteca Temporis" by Karen A Romanko
"Two Cathedrals" by Malcolm Deeley
"Statuary" by John Kuhn
DKA Fiction
"Damage" by Jane Lebak
"The Fortunate Purgatory of Arthur MacArthur" by Chris Mikesell
"Sorrow's Shroud" by Rachel A. Marks
"Dedication" by T. L. Morganfield
"The Smoking Man" by S.T. Forstner
"Heartwyrm" by Micheal C. Planck
There is some amazing writing in there. Without Wings is thought provoking and dark--Kurt has been published in the likes of Shimmer and Raven Electrik and is a good friend and critique partner of mine. The Smoking Man is a hilarious look at the war of good and evil "behind the scenes". You can't get funnier than Steve. If you hang out in the SR forums he's goatboy. And at Liberty Hall, my writer's group, he's the one that makes all the trouble. The Short Bus was a huge hit in the SR forums and our very own Mir wrote Voices From the Void, a must read.
So, If you can, go through and read some to wet your taste buds. It would be even more cool if you could take it a step further and write a review on Amazon for a story or two. If you really want to help The Sword Review this is a great way to to it. The sales from these books will mean more great fiction in the future--as well as the future possibility of pro rates.- Mood:
content - Music:The Killers
